A long, long, time ago.....Okay, it seems like it was forever ago.....maybe actually something like 5-1/2 years ago....I was in one of the darkest places I had ever been. I had been married for 18 years. Had four children. And my husband had walked out on me. Through this time of over a year. I cried. and I cried. And then I started to cry less. I was angry. I was sad. I was mad. I had even thought quite a bit about hurting myself. I don't think so much about dying. But about cutting myself. Deep. Maybe to take my attention away from the pain. I don't know. I remember in my darkest times thinking about it a lot. And then one day. I figured I might as well see about meeting someone else. So. I took the step of signing up on one of the dating websites online. It was the first step towards making me the happiest I have ever been. It was the first step towards me becoming me. It was the first step to me liking me again. I did not like who I was. I was embarrassed of who I was. I am still amazed that this amazing man was placed in my life. So, my memory is not always the best. But, I do know he was the only man I talked to from the website. He claims there were others that tried to message me, but I don't remember any of that. I was too smitten on him. I was going to take it slow. Not fall too fast. I was scared and thrilled at the same time. He saved me. He saves me everyday. He is my rock and the person that reminds me everyday how important I am. How important I am to him.